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Oct. 22nd, 2024 07:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
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I had to put my cat Fenrir (who is technically my emotional support animal) down last night. I can't really bear to get into it right now. I'm planning on writing about it at length later. I have a lot of thoughts in my head that I want to get on paper. I'm probably going to spend at least the next few weeks, maybe months, finding ways to memorialize him. He was a very special cat and we had a one-of-a-kind bond. I know I'll never have anything exactly like it again, and that's okay.
But I'm really working hard to take care of myself today. My wife has helped me so much. She talked me through every bite of food I took until this afternoon because I just couldn't make myself eat. She charged my sleep headset so that I could wear it last night when I didn't remember, she's been hovering around me and nudging me in the correct directions and fixing things for me for almost 2 days straight now. I don't know how I would have gotten through this without her. I'm obviously going to be hurting for awhile, but I took today off to rest and grieve and I feel mostly human now. I'm not back to normal but I feel like I'm going to be eventually, which is better than how I felt this morning.
Because of all this, I'm behind on starting my midterm essay and I have no idea what's going on for my Spanish class. I don't actually have it in me to get stressed about it today, which I'm grateful for. I emailed all of my professors to explain the situation and they were all very sympathetic and seem very open to giving me some flexibility. And also, fortunately, I literally just got my disability accommodation requests submitted on Friday, so they have to give me reasonable extensions by law.
Work is going to be a shitshow, but I'm used to that. It's almost comforting to know I have a shitshow to walk into, because it's very much not my problem and all stuff I can either handle or laugh at. It's definitely comforting to know that my crisis invariably left 2 people I don't like scrambling to deal with my absence. I can have a little Schadenfreude as a treat.
I'm also working on setting up a local crafting group for COVID-cautious folks at my local library! It was supposed to be next Monday, but I didn't feel like I had enough time and energy to put together the transit and accessibility info and figure out getting the word out, so I moved it out a week. I have a couple of people who have expressed interest and I'm hoping we'll get a moderately nice turnout. It's hard to find like-minded community these days, especially who are consistently taking the same level of precaution we are. I'm also trying to put together a few freezer meals for someone local who is experiencing food insecurity. I didn't give them a specific timeline or anything but I'm hoping to do it soon.
One day at a time.
And for gods sake I have GOT too upload some more icons.
I had to put my cat Fenrir (who is technically my emotional support animal) down last night. I can't really bear to get into it right now. I'm planning on writing about it at length later. I have a lot of thoughts in my head that I want to get on paper. I'm probably going to spend at least the next few weeks, maybe months, finding ways to memorialize him. He was a very special cat and we had a one-of-a-kind bond. I know I'll never have anything exactly like it again, and that's okay.
But I'm really working hard to take care of myself today. My wife has helped me so much. She talked me through every bite of food I took until this afternoon because I just couldn't make myself eat. She charged my sleep headset so that I could wear it last night when I didn't remember, she's been hovering around me and nudging me in the correct directions and fixing things for me for almost 2 days straight now. I don't know how I would have gotten through this without her. I'm obviously going to be hurting for awhile, but I took today off to rest and grieve and I feel mostly human now. I'm not back to normal but I feel like I'm going to be eventually, which is better than how I felt this morning.
Because of all this, I'm behind on starting my midterm essay and I have no idea what's going on for my Spanish class. I don't actually have it in me to get stressed about it today, which I'm grateful for. I emailed all of my professors to explain the situation and they were all very sympathetic and seem very open to giving me some flexibility. And also, fortunately, I literally just got my disability accommodation requests submitted on Friday, so they have to give me reasonable extensions by law.
Work is going to be a shitshow, but I'm used to that. It's almost comforting to know I have a shitshow to walk into, because it's very much not my problem and all stuff I can either handle or laugh at. It's definitely comforting to know that my crisis invariably left 2 people I don't like scrambling to deal with my absence. I can have a little Schadenfreude as a treat.
I'm also working on setting up a local crafting group for COVID-cautious folks at my local library! It was supposed to be next Monday, but I didn't feel like I had enough time and energy to put together the transit and accessibility info and figure out getting the word out, so I moved it out a week. I have a couple of people who have expressed interest and I'm hoping we'll get a moderately nice turnout. It's hard to find like-minded community these days, especially who are consistently taking the same level of precaution we are. I'm also trying to put together a few freezer meals for someone local who is experiencing food insecurity. I didn't give them a specific timeline or anything but I'm hoping to do it soon.
One day at a time.
And for gods sake I have GOT too upload some more icons.
